It's been awhile.

It has been awhile since I felt your touch. It's been awhile since I've heard your heart beat. It's been awhile since I've seen you in my dreams. It's been awhile since Mommy could just look down and see you moving around. It's been awhile... 

I can't believe six months have passed. I can't believe you would have been six months already. I can't believe it's been six months that Mommy & Daddy have been on this long road... Where does it end? It never does. It just changes. It has turns and stops. Sometimes there is a jam along the way and you can't move for awhile. But, you end up getting where you are going. You always make sure that we get where we are going little man. Always here for your Mommy and Daddy. <3

As I look around and think how different life would have been if you would of stayed with us instead of going to Heaven.. Now days you'd probably be crawling into all of your Daddy's games. Mommy would be having to chase you around and pick up all of it after you pulled it out. You'd be a handful! But, I'd give anything to pick up after you one time. And deal with the hectic situation instead of not having you at all.BUT, we don't always get what we want do we baby boy. But, I know you are in good hands. You're family in Heaven is taking good care of you I am sure. : ) 

You know baby boy I was at church the other day with the family.. And Pastor Brad said something that hit me hard. He said that Jesus cries the day babies are born into the world. And us parents rejoice. And the day you die Jesus is rejoicing and all of us on either are crying because we don't want you to go. Well, Jesus must have not wanted to let go of you that day. You must have been to special! That day Jesus did not have to cry. He was able to rejoice! Of course all of us on earth had lots of tears in our eyes! And some days we still do. But, we know that one day we will see you again. And that day will be wonderful. <3 

Til' then we will have to meet you in our dreams. 

As your Uncle Nolan would said, "We love you, Jamie." 

Sweet dreams baby boy. Sending you hugs and kisses on Angel wings. <3